Here we go again...
This guy's stuff creeps me out!!
ARIES (Mar 21 - Apr 20)
Don't be too sensitive and don't be too numb, either. You are going through important, powerful, changes. You are learning something about the true extent of your ability to change the world around you. You are discovering how, in one way, you can do more than you ever dreamed possible. Yet, in another, you are frustratingly, disappointingly, restricted. How big a problem does this have to be? As big as you choose to allow it to be. Focus now on the positive thing you can do. And the rest will take care of itself.
So interesting.
Today was my last session with my CBT therapist. It was kinda sad. I had grown to really like her and her fantastic insight and her way of making me look at how silly all my negative assumptions about myself were.
I am afraid I will lapse back into my old bad habits - thinking and being pessimistic, that I might fall into a depression again...
Well you have done all the works on yourself so far, I have just been here to guide you. You should be proud of your achievements. I am proud of you and know you will be alright. You have all the tools at your disposal.
So on this rainy day, I stepped out into the city streets, with my silly rubber boots and found the first big puddle and landed into it with both feet simultaneously.
That big puddle was not so big afterall.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Sunset on a hot August night...
It seems like so much is happening to me at once - both the good and not so good, but I am trying to take it all in stride -live one day at a time, be mindful of myself and the world around me. This is the summer that has changed my life in so many ways...
When I took this photo, I had been inspired by the shots at dusk that I had shot for the indie film about two weeks ago. Everything seemed so still under the setting sun, everything bathed in a beautiful warm light. The sky, closing it’s eyes, getting ready for sleep.
I have some stunning shots of these moments and will post them soon.
When I look at this photo, I don’t think of it as a sunset, I think of it as a new day stretching it’s wings, announcing - `I will be back tomorrow`!! This is how I now see my path unfold in front of me...
I am working at the club this weekend - Thursday and Sunday - and last weekend was a blast (will post more photos of those crazy events soon). I am going to have a little solo exposition in an upscale ice cream-sorbet shop near my place. I am finishing my CBT the day after tommorow and I bought a notebook to record all my progress. I could not believe the timing. It was right there, in front of me, as if to say: buy me!
On the beautiful seafoam green cover it said in embossed writing:
I am still learning...
Michelangelo
I am still learning, and this is the begining of another lesson and journey.
When I took this photo, I had been inspired by the shots at dusk that I had shot for the indie film about two weeks ago. Everything seemed so still under the setting sun, everything bathed in a beautiful warm light. The sky, closing it’s eyes, getting ready for sleep.
I have some stunning shots of these moments and will post them soon.
When I look at this photo, I don’t think of it as a sunset, I think of it as a new day stretching it’s wings, announcing - `I will be back tomorrow`!! This is how I now see my path unfold in front of me...
I am working at the club this weekend - Thursday and Sunday - and last weekend was a blast (will post more photos of those crazy events soon). I am going to have a little solo exposition in an upscale ice cream-sorbet shop near my place. I am finishing my CBT the day after tommorow and I bought a notebook to record all my progress. I could not believe the timing. It was right there, in front of me, as if to say: buy me!
On the beautiful seafoam green cover it said in embossed writing:
I am still learning...
Michelangelo
I am still learning, and this is the begining of another lesson and journey.
Saturday, August 27, 2005
And just because life sometimes gives you little signs, and sometimes it hits you in the head like a baseball bat...
I had to post this.
The timing once again, is too crazy.
I am a happy laughing camper.
It's sunny and warm outside - and I am sunny and warm inside.
Have a wonderful weekend :-D
Aries weekly forecast from August 25th
Your Weekend: We are surrounded by technological marvels that were all but undreamed of a few decades ago. We face a future so radically different from our past as to be beyond comprehension. No wonder so many of us feel insecure. No wonder, too, that we cling to so many traditions. Incredible things are possible in your life. But only one, truly incredible thing is worth aiming for. Don't be afraid of your future, embrace it. And you'll soon start feeling grateful, for everything that's happening in your world. It's going to be a surprisingly good weekend.
The timing once again, is too crazy.
I am a happy laughing camper.
It's sunny and warm outside - and I am sunny and warm inside.
Have a wonderful weekend :-D
Aries weekly forecast from August 25th
Your Weekend: We are surrounded by technological marvels that were all but undreamed of a few decades ago. We face a future so radically different from our past as to be beyond comprehension. No wonder so many of us feel insecure. No wonder, too, that we cling to so many traditions. Incredible things are possible in your life. But only one, truly incredible thing is worth aiming for. Don't be afraid of your future, embrace it. And you'll soon start feeling grateful, for everything that's happening in your world. It's going to be a surprisingly good weekend.
In a taxi on my way home, I met with a wise man...
You know, even if I tried to make my life less complex, I don`t think it would be at all possible. My life is a Sienfeld episode - period. It goes from varying degrees of Kramer-ness, Elaineisims, Jerry-itis and George-a-tosis, but there are just some days that I have to shake my head, throw my hands up in the air and say `What the F*%k was that all about?`.
Tonight was one of those nights, and it was freakywildamazingcrazyeyeopeninglifechanging moments that I thank God I am alive and open minded enough to experience such a blessing.
I would have to spend the next two hours decompressing from the wealth of information that is now packed into my folds of grey matter, and because I am going only on fumes now (Had another AMAZING night at the club tonight - it`s almost 4am and I am bagged dead tired) but this is something I have to write down becasue I know that as soon as I lay my head on the pillow, it will evaporate like unattended pot of boiling water on a stove.
So - where to begin...
I will talk about this cab driver. The moments and the insanity-crazy-wonderful energy that permeated the club tonight will be possible to recount via the almost 320 photos that I took tonight.
yep - 320.
But about the cab driver...
Sometimes, when you really want something, but least expect that its gonna happen during your lifetime, it does. Just like that. Poof!! It`s there, staring you in the face, grinning like aCheshire cat saying I told you so. You asked, and here I am!!
I was not a firm believer of that - power of positive thinking school of thought. If the power of + thinking were that successful, everybody I know would be in a better place financially, physcialluy and emotionally than they are at now.
HOGWASH!!
I said...
Past tense
Over the past month, I have been in a funky kind of therapy called Cognitive behavioral therapy. And let me tell you, it kicks some serious pessimistic ass! The premise is simple - change your thoughts, change your mood = change your life. It sounds ridiculously simple, but it works. I am in the process of being living proof.
Not too long ago, I read a book by Wayne Dyer called the power of intention which basically says - if you believe in what you want, you can make it happen and make it your reality...
there`s no place like home, there`s no place like home.
And sometimes, it`s as easy as clicking the heels of your ruby slippers together a few times
the magic of believing...
I have tried so hard and am still in the process of changing my thinking patters (I have toyed with the idea of writing another blog called - My See Bee tea (a punny phonetic play on words) but i think if I had one more blog or thing to do, I would not have any time to breathe, so I will dump bits and peices of my personal discoveries here...
CBT = change your negative self defeating thought processes. Dispute them, contest them, put them through the ringer - imagine asking yourself the question - what is the worst thing that can happen. Nine times out of ten, you won`t die or lose your limb if the worst case scenario takes place. We just think it will happen that way.
So I have been trying to make myself believe in my abilities as a writer, a photographer, and someone who is actually quite multi-talented and to stop putting up my own roadblocks to success.
Why do I fear success?
I am afraid of failure.
I think we all are to some degree.
Well, this taxi driver tonight just put the whole thing into perspective.
Complete perspective.
I was at the club and it was just amazing how people were responsive to me - hugging me after they saw the result of a great photo I snapped of them, people coming up to me, asking me if I could take their photos as they danced and posed while whooping it up. It was like I was a 10000 watt bulb and I was in the middle of a moth Woodstock weekend. I guess I was glowing, being really happy at what I was doing, and the chain reaction perpetuated another action and so on. I almost did`tn want to leave cause I was having such a blast.
I spoke with the owner - who is IN LOVE with my photos (he can`t tell me enough times a day how much he freaks over them) and tonight said that he told his girlfriend - I found the photographer for the wedding, even though it`s three years away, I know I have to book her now...
I just stood there, stunned with a stupid exhausted grin on my face.
Wow
I went outside and ran into one of the security guards who had a good time chatting with me the night before as she had to do a routine check of my bag. so you are a photographer? Do you do headshots for actors? I am in need of new ones...
And before I left the house today (forgot about that one), I got a call from the organizer of the nude and erotic art festival I was a part of in April and he wanted to know if he could use one of my images for the poster of his next event - a bodypainting competition.
I was stunned.
All in one day - because I put myself out there and believed in my work and how important it is for me to share it with others.
Wow
So the taxi ride home -
This guy - Edwin, was brilliant. Turns out he did his masters and was working on a PHD in philosophy (hello - hats off to anybody who can wrap their head around that stuff!) and could not find a job so he is doing some taxi driving to pay the bills. In brief - these are some of the things he said - There is a difference between thinking , living and believing - we only live one of the two, rarely all three, but the most important is the belief that we can live what we think and believe we could be.
Imagination is God`s workshop.
When you have negative thoughts in your life, during the day, these thoughts are like blood clots in your system. Your heart is the seat of your soul - like a sprinkler nourishing the other parts of your body. When the clot stops your energy from flowing to your heart, the whole system breaks down, the sprinkler stops and everything goes into a shutdown mode. Keep free from those negative thoughts - detach yourself from them, they are only thoughts, and you have control over what you make important in your life - these thoughts are fleeting only if you let them become fleeing. If you give them unnecessary weight and importance, they will become clots and shut down the whole system. You have the power of your mind to focus on what is important and what is real in the here and now.
If you believe, you can make it happen. You start thinking about negative things, of the things you don`t have - I don`t have a job, I don`t have any money, I don`t have this and that - well, if you believe that, you will have what you believe becasue you make that your current reality. If you focus on the good, on what you want, visualize it so that it`s palpable, continue to believe in it, you will get it because your center of need and desire is the power within yourself. Only you stop yourself from becoming what you really want to be. When we go against what other people`s and society`s definition of who we should be, we feel guilty, and guilt is a poison , it is the material of the blood clot. It is unhealthy. As long as you are true to yourself, and you know that what you want is not taking away from or causing harm to anybody else, then the obstacles are of your own making and can be removed by you alone.
There were other things he said - about goodness, detachment from anger and frustration, loving and letting go of hatred and expectations that were all so beautiful. I wish I had enough sense to take notes, but I was completely mesmerized and clung to his every word.
I was sitting in a taxi cab, on a Friday night, 3:30am with a Haitian Buddha
and it was truly a mystical experience.
Ah! You are a photographer! I would love to get some photos of myself, with a nice house, happy and content becasue I will put those in my apartment and look at them every day. That will remind me that all I want is within my reach. I will remind myself that the only thing that stands between me and what I desire is my own self-doubt and worry. If you believe it, you will have it.
If you build it, they will come.
Somehow, that line from Field of Dreams does not seem that far fetched anymore.
So as I close this, yet another lengthy diatribe monologue to myself, or perhaps to my fellow bloggers out there, or maybe even somebody who happened to stumble onto my site here, do yourself a favor. Write down your intention. Take a photo of yourself happy and where you really want to be. Print it out, post it on your wall and look at it every day - say This is me and I have it already - it is within my reach and mine to keep. Now, I believe that something magical may just happen...
I might just take that photo of me before I hit the mattress , but then again, I want to look at least half rested and glowing when I imagine myself sharing my books, movies and photography with the world...
:-D
And as I do the final spell check on this document, I have to laugh out loud.
You know what word I am having the hardest time with - spelling it wrong all the time?
You guessed it
I think i should write it 100 times on a paper so I can memorize it...
Tonight was one of those nights, and it was freakywildamazingcrazyeyeopeninglifechanging moments that I thank God I am alive and open minded enough to experience such a blessing.
I would have to spend the next two hours decompressing from the wealth of information that is now packed into my folds of grey matter, and because I am going only on fumes now (Had another AMAZING night at the club tonight - it`s almost 4am and I am bagged dead tired) but this is something I have to write down becasue I know that as soon as I lay my head on the pillow, it will evaporate like unattended pot of boiling water on a stove.
So - where to begin...
I will talk about this cab driver. The moments and the insanity-crazy-wonderful energy that permeated the club tonight will be possible to recount via the almost 320 photos that I took tonight.
yep - 320.
But about the cab driver...
Sometimes, when you really want something, but least expect that its gonna happen during your lifetime, it does. Just like that. Poof!! It`s there, staring you in the face, grinning like aCheshire cat saying I told you so. You asked, and here I am!!
I was not a firm believer of that - power of positive thinking school of thought. If the power of + thinking were that successful, everybody I know would be in a better place financially, physcialluy and emotionally than they are at now.
HOGWASH!!
I said...
Past tense
Over the past month, I have been in a funky kind of therapy called Cognitive behavioral therapy. And let me tell you, it kicks some serious pessimistic ass! The premise is simple - change your thoughts, change your mood = change your life. It sounds ridiculously simple, but it works. I am in the process of being living proof.
Not too long ago, I read a book by Wayne Dyer called the power of intention which basically says - if you believe in what you want, you can make it happen and make it your reality...
there`s no place like home, there`s no place like home.
And sometimes, it`s as easy as clicking the heels of your ruby slippers together a few times
the magic of believing...
I have tried so hard and am still in the process of changing my thinking patters (I have toyed with the idea of writing another blog called - My See Bee tea (a punny phonetic play on words) but i think if I had one more blog or thing to do, I would not have any time to breathe, so I will dump bits and peices of my personal discoveries here...
CBT = change your negative self defeating thought processes. Dispute them, contest them, put them through the ringer - imagine asking yourself the question - what is the worst thing that can happen. Nine times out of ten, you won`t die or lose your limb if the worst case scenario takes place. We just think it will happen that way.
So I have been trying to make myself believe in my abilities as a writer, a photographer, and someone who is actually quite multi-talented and to stop putting up my own roadblocks to success.
Why do I fear success?
I am afraid of failure.
I think we all are to some degree.
Well, this taxi driver tonight just put the whole thing into perspective.
Complete perspective.
I was at the club and it was just amazing how people were responsive to me - hugging me after they saw the result of a great photo I snapped of them, people coming up to me, asking me if I could take their photos as they danced and posed while whooping it up. It was like I was a 10000 watt bulb and I was in the middle of a moth Woodstock weekend. I guess I was glowing, being really happy at what I was doing, and the chain reaction perpetuated another action and so on. I almost did`tn want to leave cause I was having such a blast.
I spoke with the owner - who is IN LOVE with my photos (he can`t tell me enough times a day how much he freaks over them) and tonight said that he told his girlfriend - I found the photographer for the wedding, even though it`s three years away, I know I have to book her now...
I just stood there, stunned with a stupid exhausted grin on my face.
Wow
I went outside and ran into one of the security guards who had a good time chatting with me the night before as she had to do a routine check of my bag. so you are a photographer? Do you do headshots for actors? I am in need of new ones...
And before I left the house today (forgot about that one), I got a call from the organizer of the nude and erotic art festival I was a part of in April and he wanted to know if he could use one of my images for the poster of his next event - a bodypainting competition.
I was stunned.
All in one day - because I put myself out there and believed in my work and how important it is for me to share it with others.
Wow
So the taxi ride home -
This guy - Edwin, was brilliant. Turns out he did his masters and was working on a PHD in philosophy (hello - hats off to anybody who can wrap their head around that stuff!) and could not find a job so he is doing some taxi driving to pay the bills. In brief - these are some of the things he said - There is a difference between thinking , living and believing - we only live one of the two, rarely all three, but the most important is the belief that we can live what we think and believe we could be.
Imagination is God`s workshop.
When you have negative thoughts in your life, during the day, these thoughts are like blood clots in your system. Your heart is the seat of your soul - like a sprinkler nourishing the other parts of your body. When the clot stops your energy from flowing to your heart, the whole system breaks down, the sprinkler stops and everything goes into a shutdown mode. Keep free from those negative thoughts - detach yourself from them, they are only thoughts, and you have control over what you make important in your life - these thoughts are fleeting only if you let them become fleeing. If you give them unnecessary weight and importance, they will become clots and shut down the whole system. You have the power of your mind to focus on what is important and what is real in the here and now.
If you believe, you can make it happen. You start thinking about negative things, of the things you don`t have - I don`t have a job, I don`t have any money, I don`t have this and that - well, if you believe that, you will have what you believe becasue you make that your current reality. If you focus on the good, on what you want, visualize it so that it`s palpable, continue to believe in it, you will get it because your center of need and desire is the power within yourself. Only you stop yourself from becoming what you really want to be. When we go against what other people`s and society`s definition of who we should be, we feel guilty, and guilt is a poison , it is the material of the blood clot. It is unhealthy. As long as you are true to yourself, and you know that what you want is not taking away from or causing harm to anybody else, then the obstacles are of your own making and can be removed by you alone.
There were other things he said - about goodness, detachment from anger and frustration, loving and letting go of hatred and expectations that were all so beautiful. I wish I had enough sense to take notes, but I was completely mesmerized and clung to his every word.
I was sitting in a taxi cab, on a Friday night, 3:30am with a Haitian Buddha
and it was truly a mystical experience.
Ah! You are a photographer! I would love to get some photos of myself, with a nice house, happy and content becasue I will put those in my apartment and look at them every day. That will remind me that all I want is within my reach. I will remind myself that the only thing that stands between me and what I desire is my own self-doubt and worry. If you believe it, you will have it.
If you build it, they will come.
Somehow, that line from Field of Dreams does not seem that far fetched anymore.
So as I close this, yet another lengthy diatribe monologue to myself, or perhaps to my fellow bloggers out there, or maybe even somebody who happened to stumble onto my site here, do yourself a favor. Write down your intention. Take a photo of yourself happy and where you really want to be. Print it out, post it on your wall and look at it every day - say This is me and I have it already - it is within my reach and mine to keep. Now, I believe that something magical may just happen...
I might just take that photo of me before I hit the mattress , but then again, I want to look at least half rested and glowing when I imagine myself sharing my books, movies and photography with the world...
:-D
And as I do the final spell check on this document, I have to laugh out loud.
You know what word I am having the hardest time with - spelling it wrong all the time?
You guessed it
believe
I think i should write it 100 times on a paper so I can memorize it...
Friday, August 26, 2005
Zippy
I remember years ago, a good friend of mine - Barnes, called me Zippy because I was always running around, never in one place. He was so funny - in his deep Lou Gossett Jr. voice, drawing an imaginary line across his chest - "zippy..."
And that name so fits me so well lately.
I can't believe I am awake at this ungodly hour. It's 8:20 and I have had only about 2 hours of sleep. The sun comes up and no matter what time I went to bed, a bright early morning has me out of bed and running around - being zippy again.
but i will need my sleep as I am doing another late night again tonight...
So in a gazillion words or less - things are WILD CRAZY!!
- found out that the show - Sex and La Cité, will be playing 3 nights in this festival. One of those nights will be at the Just for Laughs Comedy museum. Capacity 250. WOW! And then two nights at the famous Chez Mado. We are all freaking and pumped. It's going to be a big venue and we are hoping to fill it...
fingers crossed
- I just did some cinematography for a friend's film over the weekend. It was a trailer for his upcoming feature. I got the position by fluke. I had originally met him for the position of director, but he found somebody else who had their own cinematographer. But then about 3 weeks ago, he called me and said that the director's guy had another film to shoot, so the position was open and he had raved about me to the director. Next thing I know, I am looking at the script, meeting with everybody and then spending last weekend shooting the thing! It was a wonderful experience (and I hate to toot my own horn, but the footage was KICK ASS!!) and when the money comes in to shoot the feature, it's gonna be mine to shoot!! No money, but hell! What an experience!!
- I got a last minute call from that club I worked for - 1234. Last minute last Friday night. I was to work on the film Saturday morning - and be on set by 7:30am...
I know it's last minute, but would you be able to come in and shoot something tonight!? The photographer for the fashion show backed out and we are left without anybody to document this... I would really appreciate it but understand if you can't make it... Well, needless to say, I jumped on the chance and went (I was a wreck the next morning, but was okay after my 20th coffee).
Well, wouldn't you know, I got a call last night from the same people from the club asking : I know it's last minute again, but we are going to need you tonight, and tomorrow night. And we would like to book you in advance for the 1st and the 4th of September, and then again on the 4th and 30th of October...
I almost swallowed the receiver my mouth had opened so wide! The catch was that at my usual going rate, twice a month, every month for the next 4 months was a lot of money - but he said:We have been approached by other people who want to take the photos, but frankly, I love your photos so much, you are my star photographer of choice. So can we talk price?
I settled on a half decent deal and both parties were happy.
BUT
there is always a but isn't there...
I got to the club (and thank God I followed my instinct to take my other flash) and I start to take some photos, and realize that my in - camera flash has died!! I almost lost it, but some internal switch overrode the panic button in my head and I just made do with a slow, but functional external flash. It was hysterical - I don't know if it was just the night, the moon, or the alcohol, but everybody was just dying to have their photo taken (which made my job a helluva lot easier!)!! So that was all good.
it's all good.
And I am one happy and exhausted camper now.
And I am going to be going to New York for the first time in my life in October!! A group of people from Flickr have managed to get a group exposition off the ground and I am taking part in it as well as being part of the 'artist speaker' series which will be open to the public as well as the expo which will be in a gallery in Harlem. I am quietly flipping with large bags under my eyes and a huge grin on my face.
Speaking of bags...
I should get a token amount of sleep again before I officially start my day. I was hoping that typing a marathon blog would get me sleepy, instead it's just gotten me hungry.
Time to have a bowl of Lucky Charms - They're magically delicious!!
And that name so fits me so well lately.
I can't believe I am awake at this ungodly hour. It's 8:20 and I have had only about 2 hours of sleep. The sun comes up and no matter what time I went to bed, a bright early morning has me out of bed and running around - being zippy again.
but i will need my sleep as I am doing another late night again tonight...
So in a gazillion words or less - things are WILD CRAZY!!
- found out that the show - Sex and La Cité, will be playing 3 nights in this festival. One of those nights will be at the Just for Laughs Comedy museum. Capacity 250. WOW! And then two nights at the famous Chez Mado. We are all freaking and pumped. It's going to be a big venue and we are hoping to fill it...
fingers crossed
- I just did some cinematography for a friend's film over the weekend. It was a trailer for his upcoming feature. I got the position by fluke. I had originally met him for the position of director, but he found somebody else who had their own cinematographer. But then about 3 weeks ago, he called me and said that the director's guy had another film to shoot, so the position was open and he had raved about me to the director. Next thing I know, I am looking at the script, meeting with everybody and then spending last weekend shooting the thing! It was a wonderful experience (and I hate to toot my own horn, but the footage was KICK ASS!!) and when the money comes in to shoot the feature, it's gonna be mine to shoot!! No money, but hell! What an experience!!
- I got a last minute call from that club I worked for - 1234. Last minute last Friday night. I was to work on the film Saturday morning - and be on set by 7:30am...
I know it's last minute, but would you be able to come in and shoot something tonight!? The photographer for the fashion show backed out and we are left without anybody to document this... I would really appreciate it but understand if you can't make it... Well, needless to say, I jumped on the chance and went (I was a wreck the next morning, but was okay after my 20th coffee).
Well, wouldn't you know, I got a call last night from the same people from the club asking : I know it's last minute again, but we are going to need you tonight, and tomorrow night. And we would like to book you in advance for the 1st and the 4th of September, and then again on the 4th and 30th of October...
I almost swallowed the receiver my mouth had opened so wide! The catch was that at my usual going rate, twice a month, every month for the next 4 months was a lot of money - but he said:We have been approached by other people who want to take the photos, but frankly, I love your photos so much, you are my star photographer of choice. So can we talk price?
I settled on a half decent deal and both parties were happy.
BUT
there is always a but isn't there...
I got to the club (and thank God I followed my instinct to take my other flash) and I start to take some photos, and realize that my in - camera flash has died!! I almost lost it, but some internal switch overrode the panic button in my head and I just made do with a slow, but functional external flash. It was hysterical - I don't know if it was just the night, the moon, or the alcohol, but everybody was just dying to have their photo taken (which made my job a helluva lot easier!)!! So that was all good.
it's all good.
And I am one happy and exhausted camper now.
And I am going to be going to New York for the first time in my life in October!! A group of people from Flickr have managed to get a group exposition off the ground and I am taking part in it as well as being part of the 'artist speaker' series which will be open to the public as well as the expo which will be in a gallery in Harlem. I am quietly flipping with large bags under my eyes and a huge grin on my face.
Speaking of bags...
I should get a token amount of sleep again before I officially start my day. I was hoping that typing a marathon blog would get me sleepy, instead it's just gotten me hungry.
Time to have a bowl of Lucky Charms - They're magically delicious!!
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Another encore!??!?!
So it seems like the Sex and La Cité buzz just won't quit!!
We are scheduled to have three more shows - that's right, three more shows!! And that is only in September!!! We might have another repeat in October, around Halloween. A party that would rival the Rocky Horror Picture show, with contests a la Sex and the City (Who has the best shoes, who can do the best Carrie Bradshaw squeal, who can do the best Big saying "absofuckenutley", a drag queen contest and dress up as your favourite character). Audience participation would be the key, but that is still on the back burner for now. And there might be another possibility to play in a real theater - the Centaur in January. Big time shit. but we shall see...
So me?
Little old me?
Running on worn out shock absorbers and my tire treads are wearing thin,
but
I am doing cinematography for a trailer for an independant feature film this weekend. Basically, if things go well, then I get to do the whole feature, but that is being way ahead of myself. But it is Saturday and Sunday, pretty easy shots, but lots of people in a tiny space. I know the guy, super cool, and he is managing to get almost all the equipment for free (whereas 'normal' people would have to pay aroud $2000 for the weekend...) and lots of other important people backing him. I am a little nervous, I have to admit, but it's not like there is a $40,000 budget and producers hanging over my head!! Thank God I aced that one! Now I can look back and remind myself of this when I go into smaller shoots cause nothing will compare to that one (well, until I get a bigger one, but who knows when that will be!!)!
So I am off to study the camera - Canon XL1
...
Don't buy it.
It's a total peice of crap! (bit that's just my personal opinion...)
If you want to sink $4000 into a dv cam, go Panasonic, at least most of the body is made out of industrial plastic, not like this one. When I use it, I feel like I am playing with an oversized Barbie Video camera!! (btw - has anybody seen the "my first mobil phone" for kids!?!??! What the hell!? - "mommy, I am in my room and I have to go poo now..." And what's up with this and this!?!?
lol
We are scheduled to have three more shows - that's right, three more shows!! And that is only in September!!! We might have another repeat in October, around Halloween. A party that would rival the Rocky Horror Picture show, with contests a la Sex and the City (Who has the best shoes, who can do the best Carrie Bradshaw squeal, who can do the best Big saying "absofuckenutley", a drag queen contest and dress up as your favourite character). Audience participation would be the key, but that is still on the back burner for now. And there might be another possibility to play in a real theater - the Centaur in January. Big time shit. but we shall see...
So me?
Little old me?
Running on worn out shock absorbers and my tire treads are wearing thin,
but
I am doing cinematography for a trailer for an independant feature film this weekend. Basically, if things go well, then I get to do the whole feature, but that is being way ahead of myself. But it is Saturday and Sunday, pretty easy shots, but lots of people in a tiny space. I know the guy, super cool, and he is managing to get almost all the equipment for free (whereas 'normal' people would have to pay aroud $2000 for the weekend...) and lots of other important people backing him. I am a little nervous, I have to admit, but it's not like there is a $40,000 budget and producers hanging over my head!! Thank God I aced that one! Now I can look back and remind myself of this when I go into smaller shoots cause nothing will compare to that one (well, until I get a bigger one, but who knows when that will be!!)!
So I am off to study the camera - Canon XL1
...
Don't buy it.
It's a total peice of crap! (bit that's just my personal opinion...)
If you want to sink $4000 into a dv cam, go Panasonic, at least most of the body is made out of industrial plastic, not like this one. When I use it, I feel like I am playing with an oversized Barbie Video camera!! (btw - has anybody seen the "my first mobil phone" for kids!?!??! What the hell!? - "mommy, I am in my room and I have to go poo now..." And what's up with this and this!?!?
lol
Saturday, August 06, 2005
Little Fanny - In memory of Hiroshima
I came across this tombstone and took this photo in the older part of the Mount Royal Cemetary - where rich families were burried. Apparently, during the turn of the century, there was a polio epidemic here, and many children died before the age of 5. There were so many of these 'simple graves' everywhere, but this one was the most disturbing...
I dedicate this photo to all who lost their lives during the bombing of Hiroshima, especially all those children who did not have a chance to grow up.
I dedicate this photo to all who lost their lives during the bombing of Hiroshima, especially all those children who did not have a chance to grow up.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Reaching out for a little bit of flickr loving...
You know, sometimes the internet is a wonderful place to be, to meet people, to exchange ideas, to reach out into the world. Sure there are bad ways and good ways of doing it, but I must admit, being able to reach out to people, knowing that my work is changing their lives is something more than money could ever buy. It makes me feel like I have purpose, like my art and the sharing of my art with the world makes a difference...
Here are some of the quotes/testimonials people have written for me...
"Kitty is a true chameleon. I love her images and always look forward to what new places she'll take us.Whether it be backstage, in the club, or in the bedroom.Her images strike the spark that starts the raging bonfire of beauty, art, love and desire.Her confidence and power shine through and inspire."
inkycat
"Kitty is the kind of person that brings a smile to your face by only thinking about her.I find in Kitty a splendid example of a 'full' person: intelligent, daring - yet at same time sensitive and listening. She has the gift of superb sense of humor and no less than that and very rare to find - beautiful self awareness of a whole person up to the finest intimate erotic shades.Put them all together and you'll find Kitty, a person I consider myself lucky to have met in this flickr world."
Baracute
"hpk is one amazing woman that is a true delight..from the very sensual to music images..in between all this is a rare talent and joy..." alfarman
shadowbox says:"Sensual, sassy, chic and seething with moxie...much like that favorite city of mine from which she hails. Oh and she takes pretty pictures, too."
viewfinder says:"for me, this is a place to say "wow." i never intend to say it, but kitty draws it from me every time I'm here, as easily as she might drape an arm around my shoulders, look into my eyes, kiss my cheek.you see, kitty's pics come with a touch -- like the caress, the look, the kiss -- also the slap, the embrace, the thrust... they breathe, and sigh, and moan, and live.we shooters all approach the geometry of our art differently, that personal vector that somehow describes a line from our eye to the world and back again... some of us hide therein and some of us with it reveal some truth, some axiomatic essence of self. kitty is very much the latter of the two, for which I appreciate and admire her very much."
Klugarsh says:"Understands & achieves the ART of photography, to which most of us seem unaware, indifferent, or impotent.& Canadian to boot."
drp says:"Raw.
Sincere.
Emotional.
Erotic.
Genuine.
Sexual.
Courageous.
These are not taboo words.
Nor are they negative traits.
They are real. Human.
HPK presents life as such. In all of its grit and glory. Some might be offended.
Oh well.
Your loss.
This is life, as art, as life.
I, for one, admire it.
And her.
Keep going, HPK."
I can't tell you how amazing it is to have people say that about me and my work. I have to re-read each of these things when I am feeling down and sad - doubting myself and my work, which I have been doing alot lately.
Perhaps too much, to the point of possibly being self destructive.
But to everything - turn, turn, turn.
God did not make everything in a day, and on the last day, he rested!!
Rest - seems like a foreign language tern to me lately...
I just got this from a new flickr friend - we were talking about the strange closeness of the internet community and how people meet...
I think that the web, and the communities on the web that are forming now, are a type of compression and expansion of the human experience, and that out of the sheer millions of people online at any point make running into a like spirit so out there, that it must be destiny.
Destiny? Perhaps.
I like to think that there is a bigger plan - that my photos and my writings are out there and touching people's lives for a reason.
My suffering was not in vain.
And my joys were for sharing...
One last closing comment from my sweet friend tracey - the dak
Indeed, your work is reaching out to an inspired mass often in awe of your talent; I'm flattered that you think my pictures are cool - thank you. :) I'd never really thought about that - the hope of making a difference in somebody's life with my work - it makes more sense the more i think about it, and if anything, it's an awesome emotional perk to a frustrating, tiring artist.
and yes it is tracey -
yes it is...
Here are some of the quotes/testimonials people have written for me...
"Kitty is a true chameleon. I love her images and always look forward to what new places she'll take us.Whether it be backstage, in the club, or in the bedroom.Her images strike the spark that starts the raging bonfire of beauty, art, love and desire.Her confidence and power shine through and inspire."
inkycat
"Kitty is the kind of person that brings a smile to your face by only thinking about her.I find in Kitty a splendid example of a 'full' person: intelligent, daring - yet at same time sensitive and listening. She has the gift of superb sense of humor and no less than that and very rare to find - beautiful self awareness of a whole person up to the finest intimate erotic shades.Put them all together and you'll find Kitty, a person I consider myself lucky to have met in this flickr world."
Baracute
"hpk is one amazing woman that is a true delight..from the very sensual to music images..in between all this is a rare talent and joy..." alfarman
shadowbox says:"Sensual, sassy, chic and seething with moxie...much like that favorite city of mine from which she hails. Oh and she takes pretty pictures, too."
viewfinder says:"for me, this is a place to say "wow." i never intend to say it, but kitty draws it from me every time I'm here, as easily as she might drape an arm around my shoulders, look into my eyes, kiss my cheek.you see, kitty's pics come with a touch -- like the caress, the look, the kiss -- also the slap, the embrace, the thrust... they breathe, and sigh, and moan, and live.we shooters all approach the geometry of our art differently, that personal vector that somehow describes a line from our eye to the world and back again... some of us hide therein and some of us with it reveal some truth, some axiomatic essence of self. kitty is very much the latter of the two, for which I appreciate and admire her very much."
Klugarsh says:"Understands & achieves the ART of photography, to which most of us seem unaware, indifferent, or impotent.& Canadian to boot."
drp says:"Raw.
Sincere.
Emotional.
Erotic.
Genuine.
Sexual.
Courageous.
These are not taboo words.
Nor are they negative traits.
They are real. Human.
HPK presents life as such. In all of its grit and glory. Some might be offended.
Oh well.
Your loss.
This is life, as art, as life.
I, for one, admire it.
And her.
Keep going, HPK."
I can't tell you how amazing it is to have people say that about me and my work. I have to re-read each of these things when I am feeling down and sad - doubting myself and my work, which I have been doing alot lately.
Perhaps too much, to the point of possibly being self destructive.
But to everything - turn, turn, turn.
God did not make everything in a day, and on the last day, he rested!!
Rest - seems like a foreign language tern to me lately...
I just got this from a new flickr friend - we were talking about the strange closeness of the internet community and how people meet...
I think that the web, and the communities on the web that are forming now, are a type of compression and expansion of the human experience, and that out of the sheer millions of people online at any point make running into a like spirit so out there, that it must be destiny.
Destiny? Perhaps.
I like to think that there is a bigger plan - that my photos and my writings are out there and touching people's lives for a reason.
My suffering was not in vain.
And my joys were for sharing...
One last closing comment from my sweet friend tracey - the dak
Indeed, your work is reaching out to an inspired mass often in awe of your talent; I'm flattered that you think my pictures are cool - thank you. :) I'd never really thought about that - the hope of making a difference in somebody's life with my work - it makes more sense the more i think about it, and if anything, it's an awesome emotional perk to a frustrating, tiring artist.
and yes it is tracey -
yes it is...
Friday, July 29, 2005
These little town blues....
Well, it's happening again!!!
These freaky coincidences are popping up everywhere!
Yesterday a friend of mine came over and told me that he was going down to NYC to show off his hat collection, which was followed by a 'You wanna come with us?"
I almost died!
Then later on tonight, I spoke with a friend about all of this 'Sienfeldesque coincidences' and he said:oh my GOD! My cousin is always asking me when I am gonna come to New York to see him!! You know that I used to live in New York for a year?
Guess what?
Yep. You guessed it!
I almost died again!!
Then tonight - I was writing an email to a friend of mine, and what pops up in the pop up window next to my message? An add for a contest for where else??
'fry me to new york - win a trip to new york... from New York Fries!"
These freaky coincidences are popping up everywhere!
Yesterday a friend of mine came over and told me that he was going down to NYC to show off his hat collection, which was followed by a 'You wanna come with us?"
I almost died!
Then later on tonight, I spoke with a friend about all of this 'Sienfeldesque coincidences' and he said:oh my GOD! My cousin is always asking me when I am gonna come to New York to see him!! You know that I used to live in New York for a year?
Guess what?
Yep. You guessed it!
I almost died again!!
Then tonight - I was writing an email to a friend of mine, and what pops up in the pop up window next to my message? An add for a contest for where else??
'fry me to new york - win a trip to new york... from New York Fries!"
but the lovely disclaimer says: not open to residences of Quebec. Hello!?!?
BUT the contest originates from Ontario - Toronto, which is another place that has been popping up in questions about my travels lately!!
AHHH!!!!
Now, all I need is the cash and the way to get there.
I am also working on getting to Portugal in January....
Hmmm...
OH!! And there is talk that we might be getting a 500 seat gig to put on Sex and la cité!!
When it rains, thank your lucky storm clouds!!
AND (you might be wondering...Does she ever stop with these annoying ANDs???!)
Angel - A. Wanna come to NYC with me??!?! oxox
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Memory foam and the space shuttle.
First, let me apologize for my untimely absence.
Aside from having sold out all the shows we had at the comedy nest (3 nights - 4 shows), I still have to remind myself. I am having a hard time believing it!!
I have been trying to catch up on some much needed rest and relaxation, trying to put my life and paperwork which has covered every inch of my office completely and just get back in to the groove. It has been a slow process, but I am getting there, paper by stupid sheet of paper!
So as it turns out, the Gay Pride parade went on last night. Apparently, it is one of the bigger ones in the world. I was supposed to be in it - with the rest of the Gals from Sex and La cité, but I was just too exhausted and the thought of me having to carry a banner for two hours while walking on the side of the car that they were going to be sitting in did not push my buttons. Although Charlotte (the director and Charlotte...) asked me last minute if I wanted to be the waitress, but I could not even see standing up in the back of a pickup truck for two hours, smiling and waving.
I don't know how the Queen and the Pope do it.
They must be doing some mean pectoral exercises to help them keep their arms up for that long!! And apparently is was a smashing success!! A friend of mine was at the parade and said as soon as the float for Sex and la cité came by, people by the thousands went MAD! Cheering and dancing (there was music playing in the pickup) that it was the highlight of the parade!! Well, I know that was the kind of publicity we needed to generate interest in our show in September during the Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, transgendered theatre festival (now that was a mouth full).
In retrospect, I am a little bit disappointed that I missed it, but at the same time, its the four girls who make the show and with whom the people will identify with. Ahh, next one! I got to see myself on video!!
We got the DVD copy of one of the shows and I was laughing my ass off watching my performance as the Greeknd Italian mothers!! I could not bebeliev how over the top I was, and how people actually applauded!! It was interesting as I noticed that seemed rushed through my lines, so next time - pacing.
Caloovy, Angel A and Gama - I will have to make copies of the DVD which might take me some time, so I hope you don't mind waiting...
Anybody want a copy!? They would make great stocking ssuffersfor those friends and family who are big fans of the show Sex and the City!!! ;-P
Funny thing - I got a "memory foam" mattress. This is apparently the same kind of foam that was supposed to be used for the astronauts in the space shuttle for their mattresses (I thought they slept while floating around? Who knew?) but it never made it. I guess there were too many loose mattresses flying around at liftoff.
(hmm. I see a wacky comedy sketch there - astronauts being impaled by these huge sheets of foam - the try to out-float them, but they cant escape. Images of men and women - faces being swallowed up into a huge monolith of white sponge!!)
but I digress...
I have yet to try it! I put it on the bed today (I figured, what an appropriate day to do so - the space shuttle lift off and all) and am going to hit the foam soon. So why is this mattress topper so special? Well, it conforms to every curve of your body - its like sinking into a really big marshmallow but better (and less messy)! And the foam springs back slowly, so it does not gap or turn into a concave abyss once you have rolled over into another position. Well, Ill be sure to give you the report.
On another note: I don't know if I had mentioned this in previous blogs (maybe I have and will have to check cause if I have - then I am just going to creep myself out a whole lot...) but NYC has been calling me for months now. I had this "calling' to go there since January and I have no clue why, all I know and sense is that there is something there (or someone? not sure yet) that is waiting for me and this will once again, change the direction in my life. Just like the way I took on the play - following my gut instinct, and telling people back in January that it was going to be a success and sell out crowds, this feeling is so strong and gets stronger all the time!!
In the past few weeks, I have met up with about 5 people who either live in New York or will be visiting there in the next few months. I just spoke with an uber cool funky photographer who said that he would gallivant with me as we paint the town magenta, cyan and yellow (inside joke for photographers...) and not too long after , I got an email from a guy who happened to see my pix on flickr who HAPPENED to work on a movie I did this time last summer who now lives IN NEW YORK!! He said: "if you want to come down in August, you are more than welcome to stay here - my roommate is going to Europe for a month..."
Now how coincidental is that???????!!!!!!! I am flipping a wee bit!
And then there is a friend from Puerto Rico who is willing to make a detour from Chicago to meet me in NYC for a few days and explore the city together cause we are both virgin visitors! And - One of my bestest friends who I have not spoken to in ages called me up today to say hi. She lives part time in NYC and goes there to visit her family often...
These little town blues, are melting away,
I want to be a part of it -
New York - New York!!
Sometimes when you ask a question - throw it out there for the universe to help you find the right solutions, you get hit with a boomerang in the head - but ohh! How sweet the pain!!!
Aside from having sold out all the shows we had at the comedy nest (3 nights - 4 shows), I still have to remind myself. I am having a hard time believing it!!
I have been trying to catch up on some much needed rest and relaxation, trying to put my life and paperwork which has covered every inch of my office completely and just get back in to the groove. It has been a slow process, but I am getting there, paper by stupid sheet of paper!
So as it turns out, the Gay Pride parade went on last night. Apparently, it is one of the bigger ones in the world. I was supposed to be in it - with the rest of the Gals from Sex and La cité, but I was just too exhausted and the thought of me having to carry a banner for two hours while walking on the side of the car that they were going to be sitting in did not push my buttons. Although Charlotte (the director and Charlotte...) asked me last minute if I wanted to be the waitress, but I could not even see standing up in the back of a pickup truck for two hours, smiling and waving.
I don't know how the Queen and the Pope do it.
They must be doing some mean pectoral exercises to help them keep their arms up for that long!! And apparently is was a smashing success!! A friend of mine was at the parade and said as soon as the float for Sex and la cité came by, people by the thousands went MAD! Cheering and dancing (there was music playing in the pickup) that it was the highlight of the parade!! Well, I know that was the kind of publicity we needed to generate interest in our show in September during the Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, transgendered theatre festival (now that was a mouth full).
In retrospect, I am a little bit disappointed that I missed it, but at the same time, its the four girls who make the show and with whom the people will identify with. Ahh, next one! I got to see myself on video!!
We got the DVD copy of one of the shows and I was laughing my ass off watching my performance as the Greeknd Italian mothers!! I could not bebeliev how over the top I was, and how people actually applauded!! It was interesting as I noticed that seemed rushed through my lines, so next time - pacing.
Caloovy, Angel A and Gama - I will have to make copies of the DVD which might take me some time, so I hope you don't mind waiting...
Anybody want a copy!? They would make great stocking ssuffersfor those friends and family who are big fans of the show Sex and the City!!! ;-P
Funny thing - I got a "memory foam" mattress. This is apparently the same kind of foam that was supposed to be used for the astronauts in the space shuttle for their mattresses (I thought they slept while floating around? Who knew?) but it never made it. I guess there were too many loose mattresses flying around at liftoff.
(hmm. I see a wacky comedy sketch there - astronauts being impaled by these huge sheets of foam - the try to out-float them, but they cant escape. Images of men and women - faces being swallowed up into a huge monolith of white sponge!!)
but I digress...
I have yet to try it! I put it on the bed today (I figured, what an appropriate day to do so - the space shuttle lift off and all) and am going to hit the foam soon. So why is this mattress topper so special? Well, it conforms to every curve of your body - its like sinking into a really big marshmallow but better (and less messy)! And the foam springs back slowly, so it does not gap or turn into a concave abyss once you have rolled over into another position. Well, Ill be sure to give you the report.
On another note: I don't know if I had mentioned this in previous blogs (maybe I have and will have to check cause if I have - then I am just going to creep myself out a whole lot...) but NYC has been calling me for months now. I had this "calling' to go there since January and I have no clue why, all I know and sense is that there is something there (or someone? not sure yet) that is waiting for me and this will once again, change the direction in my life. Just like the way I took on the play - following my gut instinct, and telling people back in January that it was going to be a success and sell out crowds, this feeling is so strong and gets stronger all the time!!
In the past few weeks, I have met up with about 5 people who either live in New York or will be visiting there in the next few months. I just spoke with an uber cool funky photographer who said that he would gallivant with me as we paint the town magenta, cyan and yellow (inside joke for photographers...) and not too long after , I got an email from a guy who happened to see my pix on flickr who HAPPENED to work on a movie I did this time last summer who now lives IN NEW YORK!! He said: "if you want to come down in August, you are more than welcome to stay here - my roommate is going to Europe for a month..."
Now how coincidental is that???????!!!!!!! I am flipping a wee bit!
And then there is a friend from Puerto Rico who is willing to make a detour from Chicago to meet me in NYC for a few days and explore the city together cause we are both virgin visitors! And - One of my bestest friends who I have not spoken to in ages called me up today to say hi. She lives part time in NYC and goes there to visit her family often...
These little town blues, are melting away,
I want to be a part of it -
New York - New York!!
Sometimes when you ask a question - throw it out there for the universe to help you find the right solutions, you get hit with a boomerang in the head - but ohh! How sweet the pain!!!
Monday, July 18, 2005
WOW! Can we sell out more shows???!!
Just a quick posty wosty as I am getting ready to go out before I melt into a puddle of drippy flesh...
Well, we sold out....
SOLD OUT THURSDAY, FRIDAY...
and the best:
BOTH SHOWS ON SATURDAY NIGHT!
PEOPLE WERE ACTUALLY TURNED AWAY AT THE DOOR ON FRIDAY NIGHT AND THE FIRST SHOW ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!
How insane is that?!?!?
I am still stunned!!!
And the show went really well, despite a lukewarm crowd Thursday ( we all left dejected and feeling a little off, despite the show`s owner telling us that people were not used to seeing a play, but a series of stand up comedians and that people were commenting on how amazing the play was.
Friday rocked!! The crowd loved every second of our play. People hollaring and cheering. It was surreal.
Saturday - both shows to a packed house - 9:30pm crowd amazing!
11pm crowd quiet, but loosened up at the end.
As we did our final bows, the director thanked the crowd, then Carrie(director) introduced her, Samantha (producer) and then grabbed me by the hand and said:
and our writer!!
And the crowd roared and cheered!!
I froze, but a good frozen.
With a silly goofy smile on my face.
Wow!
Then the aftershow party - the manager and staff of the club saying how great we were and then told me how amazing it was that is was my first play, and that is nothing short of brilliant.
I am dripping sweat, but still with this silly smirk on my face...
I have tons of funny stories and cool pix to share and will do so later today and tommorow. Hopefully, one day I will be able to put some of the video here.
Until then, stay tuned.
And beleive that sometimes little miracles do happen. ;-)
After the show party gave me chills
Well, we sold out....
EVERY SINGLE NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SOLD OUT THURSDAY, FRIDAY...
and the best:
BOTH SHOWS ON SATURDAY NIGHT!
PEOPLE WERE ACTUALLY TURNED AWAY AT THE DOOR ON FRIDAY NIGHT AND THE FIRST SHOW ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!
How insane is that?!?!?
I am still stunned!!!
And the show went really well, despite a lukewarm crowd Thursday ( we all left dejected and feeling a little off, despite the show`s owner telling us that people were not used to seeing a play, but a series of stand up comedians and that people were commenting on how amazing the play was.
Friday rocked!! The crowd loved every second of our play. People hollaring and cheering. It was surreal.
Saturday - both shows to a packed house - 9:30pm crowd amazing!
11pm crowd quiet, but loosened up at the end.
As we did our final bows, the director thanked the crowd, then Carrie(director) introduced her, Samantha (producer) and then grabbed me by the hand and said:
and our writer!!
And the crowd roared and cheered!!
I froze, but a good frozen.
With a silly goofy smile on my face.
Wow!
Then the aftershow party - the manager and staff of the club saying how great we were and then told me how amazing it was that is was my first play, and that is nothing short of brilliant.
I am dripping sweat, but still with this silly smirk on my face...
I have tons of funny stories and cool pix to share and will do so later today and tommorow. Hopefully, one day I will be able to put some of the video here.
Until then, stay tuned.
And beleive that sometimes little miracles do happen. ;-)
After the show party gave me chills
Friday, July 15, 2005
Happy photokitty
WOO HOOO!!
We played to a SOLD OUT CROWD last night! We were all soo stunned, and as we were leaving for the night, the bar owner told us that we already had 120 reservations for Friday (the place holds 150!!)This is outrageous! I am one happy camper!!
So tonight's show and then back to back shows on Saturday! Will be back soon to post more stories and shots next week.
Just wanted to spread the joy with you all!!
xoxoox
We played to a SOLD OUT CROWD last night! We were all soo stunned, and as we were leaving for the night, the bar owner told us that we already had 120 reservations for Friday (the place holds 150!!)This is outrageous! I am one happy camper!!
So tonight's show and then back to back shows on Saturday! Will be back soon to post more stories and shots next week.
Just wanted to spread the joy with you all!!
xoxoox
Sunday, July 10, 2005
The Royal Wave
This is a photo of Boy George - he was guest DJ at this club I was hired for to take photos. He was pretty low key, still chunky and was a real diva. Well, some things change, others never do...
The stars don't lie...
Rehearsal tomorrow and Tuesday - first show on Thursday.
Charlotte doubts that we will sell out because we are off the 'festival circuit'. It would be nice, but you can't have it all the time...
Disaster averted - we got one of our main characters back.
Phew!
It's hot outside but an occasional breeze sweeps through my window, carrying with it a veil of stale cigarettes and a damp moldy air conditioner filter. The people downstairs smoke all the time, I doubt they butt out when they sleep, and they have garbage bags taped to all the windows. You have to ask questions about people who tape garbage bags to their windows as curtains - for the past 2 years!! I hate to think what the inside of their house looks like...
So I am on the cusp of a new day, a new week, wondering what the future will have in store for me.
What did I do?
Consult the stars! What else!!!!?
Aries Week July 11-17th.
A Disciplined Approach
This is one of those important times in the astrolological calendar, as Saturn changes signs from Cancer to Leo. An entirely new and very dramatic phase is starting for you in terms of your creative potential. With Saturn in Leo you are going to become deadly serious about your ability to have confidence in yourself - more determined than you have been for some time. Saturn enters Leo on Saturday at the same time that Mars in Aries trines Pluto in Sagittarius. You will be very aware that change and transformation require action of a powerful nature. This is not the moment to decide to kick back and see what happens. You are being asked to participate in life as much as you can and as much as you dare. (??!!!) Mercury and Venus are still in Leo, putting you in the spotlight and helping you to attract the attention you need to get new ideas underway (okay, that sounds good to me!) . At the start of the week both planets oppose Neptune, so don't get carried away by plans that may not be in your best interest, especially those suggested by other people. They may look great on the surface, but behind the façade things may not be as they seem. Venus trines Mars on Sunday, which is great for romance! (?!?!? HUH?)
Wishing you all a wonderful week ahead!
Charlotte doubts that we will sell out because we are off the 'festival circuit'. It would be nice, but you can't have it all the time...
Disaster averted - we got one of our main characters back.
Phew!
It's hot outside but an occasional breeze sweeps through my window, carrying with it a veil of stale cigarettes and a damp moldy air conditioner filter. The people downstairs smoke all the time, I doubt they butt out when they sleep, and they have garbage bags taped to all the windows. You have to ask questions about people who tape garbage bags to their windows as curtains - for the past 2 years!! I hate to think what the inside of their house looks like...
So I am on the cusp of a new day, a new week, wondering what the future will have in store for me.
What did I do?
Consult the stars! What else!!!!?
Aries Week July 11-17th.
A Disciplined Approach
This is one of those important times in the astrolological calendar, as Saturn changes signs from Cancer to Leo. An entirely new and very dramatic phase is starting for you in terms of your creative potential. With Saturn in Leo you are going to become deadly serious about your ability to have confidence in yourself - more determined than you have been for some time. Saturn enters Leo on Saturday at the same time that Mars in Aries trines Pluto in Sagittarius. You will be very aware that change and transformation require action of a powerful nature. This is not the moment to decide to kick back and see what happens. You are being asked to participate in life as much as you can and as much as you dare. (??!!!) Mercury and Venus are still in Leo, putting you in the spotlight and helping you to attract the attention you need to get new ideas underway (okay, that sounds good to me!) . At the start of the week both planets oppose Neptune, so don't get carried away by plans that may not be in your best interest, especially those suggested by other people. They may look great on the surface, but behind the façade things may not be as they seem. Venus trines Mars on Sunday, which is great for romance! (?!?!? HUH?)
Wishing you all a wonderful week ahead!
Friday, July 08, 2005
Last minute walk outs and phone in sex talk shows...
Just a brief brief update.
Well, the show is going to be put on again at the Comedy Nest next week. We are going to have 4 shows. I could have never ever beleived it.
Last night, Charlotte, Samantha and I were interviewed on a phone in sex show with Dr. Laura (not schleshenger...I think that is how you spell her name...) but a local Laura. She asked about when the show was playing and other Yadda yaddas. The phone never made it to me but Samantha put in a wonderful plug for me. I was very happy about that!
Fingers crossed though...
We might just be getting an interview with the city`s biggest morning show hosts! Terry DiMonte is a huge celeb and funny as hell here in the city, and everybody listens to his show. Thing is, we might have to get up at 5am to be on the show for 7am!! but it will be fun if it happens - FINGERS CROSSED!!
Just got wind that our Pascal is dropping out from the play.
This is serious stuff. It would be horrible if it actually happened. He is upset becasue he thinks that we payed one of the stage managers, but the truth is, NOBODY GOT PAID A CENT!! We all did it for the love of the project.
And Pascal is such a great actor and in this part, he really shines. It would be so horrible if this happened, less than a week before the show...
I will keep you all posted...
Well, the show is going to be put on again at the Comedy Nest next week. We are going to have 4 shows. I could have never ever beleived it.
Last night, Charlotte, Samantha and I were interviewed on a phone in sex show with Dr. Laura (not schleshenger...I think that is how you spell her name...) but a local Laura. She asked about when the show was playing and other Yadda yaddas. The phone never made it to me but Samantha put in a wonderful plug for me. I was very happy about that!
Fingers crossed though...
We might just be getting an interview with the city`s biggest morning show hosts! Terry DiMonte is a huge celeb and funny as hell here in the city, and everybody listens to his show. Thing is, we might have to get up at 5am to be on the show for 7am!! but it will be fun if it happens - FINGERS CROSSED!!
Just got wind that our Pascal is dropping out from the play.
This is serious stuff. It would be horrible if it actually happened. He is upset becasue he thinks that we payed one of the stage managers, but the truth is, NOBODY GOT PAID A CENT!! We all did it for the love of the project.
And Pascal is such a great actor and in this part, he really shines. It would be so horrible if this happened, less than a week before the show...
I will keep you all posted...
Let me speak out loud #2
This woman is brilliant. You must run to see her stuff.
She is so brave - many of her photos deal with mental illness and the isolation and alienation that goes with being `diagnosed`, and me, being an advocate of educating the public beleive it`s people like Esther G that will make a difference.
She is so brave - many of her photos deal with mental illness and the isolation and alienation that goes with being `diagnosed`, and me, being an advocate of educating the public beleive it`s people like Esther G that will make a difference.
Thursday, July 07, 2005
make dreams come true
Thank you mdintoronto - this is the store that I think I should visit soon...
I wonder if they do lay-away plans...
I wonder if they do lay-away plans...
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
I`ll tumble for ya!
It was a sauna in there and I have the photos to prove it!!
Well seeing Boy George was certainly the experience! And it was really funny to see that most of the people there to witness this event were over 30!! There were two guest DJs who were really great sports about having their photos taken (which made my job easier!) but then the Boy came out and the crowd went wacko! I had to protect my lenses from being swashed by the sheer force of the impact of the act of being sandwiched! But once a diva always a diva cause low and behold, he told some roadie guy to tell me to stop taking photos.
But it must have looked so funny now that I think about it!! I was so into my photojournalistic mode! Picture this - I was lying on the stage with my legs in various states of being crossed and propping myself up, leaning on my elbow, shoulder, knee, twisting myself into the shape of a Bonsai to get just the right shot, and at one point, I think I was almost in front of the `DJ booth` and I must have made quite a spectacle - here is the man who took the world by storm with his wacky hats and funky makeup, not sure if he was a boy or girl... and here I am, lying almost flat on my back, with this giant zoom lens jutting out from the bottom of the stage! I tried not to use the flash much (I know how performers hate that!) but I guess I would be annoyed if somebody would be poking their nose into my DJ time too! And I guess it does not help that he is gay cause I was looking smashing that night (I guess that is why those two other DJ`s were more than willing to let me take their photos!! LOL!!)
Well, dropped off the cd to the club owners today. I am just hoping that they like what they see and will be willing to hire me again.
I hope I hope I hope!
I will be going to see Daniel Lanois this Friday!! I love this man but every time I wanted to take photos of him, something always happened! The film was underexposed, the lab fucked up with the order, and then the last time, I forgot my camera!! So this time, I am taking my baby and the rest of her attachments if I have to shove them into my underwear and bra to get past security guards for this show!!
Ahh, summer here is grand! The jazz festival has started and all the streets are filled with music. I will take some snaps of those to post here as well...
And the play? We start rehearsals next week!! WOO HOO!!!
I can’t wait!There is something so magical about theater...
What a summer! And it’s only just begun!
Well seeing Boy George was certainly the experience! And it was really funny to see that most of the people there to witness this event were over 30!! There were two guest DJs who were really great sports about having their photos taken (which made my job easier!) but then the Boy came out and the crowd went wacko! I had to protect my lenses from being swashed by the sheer force of the impact of the act of being sandwiched! But once a diva always a diva cause low and behold, he told some roadie guy to tell me to stop taking photos.
But it must have looked so funny now that I think about it!! I was so into my photojournalistic mode! Picture this - I was lying on the stage with my legs in various states of being crossed and propping myself up, leaning on my elbow, shoulder, knee, twisting myself into the shape of a Bonsai to get just the right shot, and at one point, I think I was almost in front of the `DJ booth` and I must have made quite a spectacle - here is the man who took the world by storm with his wacky hats and funky makeup, not sure if he was a boy or girl... and here I am, lying almost flat on my back, with this giant zoom lens jutting out from the bottom of the stage! I tried not to use the flash much (I know how performers hate that!) but I guess I would be annoyed if somebody would be poking their nose into my DJ time too! And I guess it does not help that he is gay cause I was looking smashing that night (I guess that is why those two other DJ`s were more than willing to let me take their photos!! LOL!!)
Well, dropped off the cd to the club owners today. I am just hoping that they like what they see and will be willing to hire me again.
I hope I hope I hope!
I will be going to see Daniel Lanois this Friday!! I love this man but every time I wanted to take photos of him, something always happened! The film was underexposed, the lab fucked up with the order, and then the last time, I forgot my camera!! So this time, I am taking my baby and the rest of her attachments if I have to shove them into my underwear and bra to get past security guards for this show!!
Ahh, summer here is grand! The jazz festival has started and all the streets are filled with music. I will take some snaps of those to post here as well...
And the play? We start rehearsals next week!! WOO HOO!!!
I can’t wait!There is something so magical about theater...
What a summer! And it’s only just begun!
Monday, July 04, 2005
Saturday, July 02, 2005
Loss for words...
This is trippy. I got this from audioblogger.com and it was pointed out to me by a flickr friend named Duane (or drp) , so the reference is to him about the singing.
So what do you think?
I wanted to keep it short but it was shorter than I realized!
How could somebody who writes so much be at such a loss for words?
Another great mystery to solve!!
(Now if I can just find out how to add that flickr banner to this blog so you can all see my photos!)
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