I was beyond "floored" when I got this.
E and I had just come back from an AMAZING vacation in Cuba (God, I love that place) - sun, sand and good times. We were both well rested (it took E a big longer - he actually had two conference calls, or attempts at conference calls - not to mention that my cell bill is going to be over 500$ for sure, and only really began to relax mid week) and came back refreshed and tanned. We had never been on vacation together before - never a "real" vacation that didn't involve camping or "rolling work into a vacation" tip, so this message was such a ice cold welcome back home.
On shitbook, unless somebody creates a "subject line" for a message, only the first few lines appear in the "from" line. So there I was, all excited about this nice note from dad, which quickly turned into sobs of anger and frustration.
Seriously - what the fuck?!
I suggest that you read the following entries to really get the gist of what is going on. After you read part 1 and part 2 you will have a new appreciation of how confused I am as how to reply.
HPK,
Your wedding was a dream. Your beauty and E's personality were the tops. The location and setting were "A" class and once again I congratulate the both of you.
Something was out of line and hit me hard. As I was not any part of your wedding, I wondered why..... was I invited.
I have to express my deep hurt feelings as I felt so much like an outcast.
No pictures of you and I were taken. Not even one.
I was not even part of "The Family Reception Line " to meet all of your guests. At that moment...... I felt like leaving......, but decided to say as I had to much respect for your wedding day.
Your comment to me on the reception line "THANKS FOR COMING" as if me ...DAD, was considered as a GUEST. That hurt ..the most.
Not once did you come personally to see your Dad and talk for a bit.
I refer to my email of the of March and your reply in which both our us had suffered enough over the past 30 years and the mending time as GROWN ADULTS were in process and turn the pages of the past and begin a new loving one as Father and Daughter.
I was hoping for this change to be and you had a chance to mend things together at your wedding...... obliviously it was far from your process and now I realize the true picture.
30 years is a long time to carry a grudge , and life must go on through many more tough hurdles and ever so passes by so quickly.
You made your choice and I accept your decision to keep your "Father of the Bride", regardless of the past, out of the pictures on this truly special daughters marriage occasion.
So...... as I now will turn another page in my life with you, I wish the both of you Happiness.
Your wedding was a dream. Your beauty and E's personality were the tops. The location and setting were "A" class and once again I congratulate the both of you.
Something was out of line and hit me hard. As I was not any part of your wedding, I wondered why..... was I invited.
I have to express my deep hurt feelings as I felt so much like an outcast.
No pictures of you and I were taken. Not even one.
I was not even part of "The Family Reception Line " to meet all of your guests. At that moment...... I felt like leaving......, but decided to say as I had to much respect for your wedding day.
Your comment to me on the reception line "THANKS FOR COMING" as if me ...DAD, was considered as a GUEST. That hurt ..the most.
Not once did you come personally to see your Dad and talk for a bit.
I refer to my email of the of March and your reply in which both our us had suffered enough over the past 30 years and the mending time as GROWN ADULTS were in process and turn the pages of the past and begin a new loving one as Father and Daughter.
I was hoping for this change to be and you had a chance to mend things together at your wedding...... obliviously it was far from your process and now I realize the true picture.
30 years is a long time to carry a grudge , and life must go on through many more tough hurdles and ever so passes by so quickly.
You made your choice and I accept your decision to keep your "Father of the Bride", regardless of the past, out of the pictures on this truly special daughters marriage occasion.
So...... as I now will turn another page in my life with you, I wish the both of you Happiness.
3 comments:
Events contain no meaning in themselves only the meaning that the mind imposes on them.
Congrats BTW!!!!!
Hey sanj :-) Nice to see you again and thn-q for the congrats!
It's hard not to attach meaning to such a sensitive subject. The emotions go deep and for such a long time, have been undisturbed, until now. I'm a very emotional person (esp. being bipolar and now hitting a depression) and the whole wedding and planning was tough without him around, not to mention me fighting to have him actually invited (my mom and the rest of the family questioned my reasoning behind this - my only reason being "He's still my dad...") and then to have this come up.
I'm trying to not let it get to me - but part of me, the little girl he left behind 30 years ago this month, is still trying to heal...
It was directed at him. nitey nite!
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