Mystery

well, the cause and origins of these floaters remain a mystery - even to a retina specialist...

Had an inital eye exam, then was off to have a angiogram of my eye. That was fun.
The secretary almost put me into a coma when she said: "and then they are going to inject a dye into your eye, I mean arm - hahahah - sorry about that!"

Not...

As I have said in the past - seen brain and spinal surgeries by the dozen, but anything to do with eyes? You might as well throw me off a building first cause there is no way I'm going to stay put for that!!

Had quite an allergic reaction to the dye - was not too pretty, almost passed out cold, could not move my muscles, had trouble breathing. I told the woman I was sensitive to things like that. She just ignored me. Hopefully I made her day like she made mine...

So from what little images they could capture before I collapsed, the doctor didn't see anything at all. "It's a mystery - there is nothing there..."

which is a good thing, but a bad thing.

if there is nothing there - what is causing the floaters!!!!!

So the question remains - do I stay on my mood stabilizers and hope these spots and strings don't cloud my vision completely, or do I venture into the land of the unknown, and take my chances with coming off this med and perhaps onto another?

The only drawback with going off the lamictal is that I could spiral into a deep state of darkness. I'm managing now - back up on my 125mg dose (from the 112 I was trying for a week until life crumbled to a million pieces) which gives me a little more pep and positive outlook - more than I had a few days ago.

I mean, c'mon. I'm going to new york because I'm part of a group photo show in a brilliant kick ass gallery which a curator who really believes in my work - how could I not be excited?!?!

Well, until a few days ago, I wasn't, and that scared me.

So I will take on the big apple, medicated and happy, floaters and all, and then, once back, will look at my options again. I can only take one day at a time at this point, and perhaps, that's a good thing...