I just got a call from the doctor's office -
I had the test done for a cancer screening two weeks ago.
The nurse told me to call her back as soon as possible because the doctor wants to talk about treatments

I'm sobbing so fucken hard I can hardly type this
E is coming home. But I'm now going out for a walk.
I don't' want to have cancer - not now.
I'm due to take my driver's exam on the 15th and am part of this fucken amazing photo project with two women...long story
I don't have the energy to say more.
just wanted you to know what was going on

today was such a nice day - was going to go for a swim in the pool park
now I'm in fear for my life and the "treatment"

please pray for me