Friday, January 08, 2010

A rant to a community

Sore, angry and scared as hell, i posted this onto an online community here in town. I know i'm not the only one. I was not looking for answers, just to vent. But now fear and deeper pain inside of me grows. A long grueling weekend ahead.

Oh yea, E said he got an email from my father. Read the first line and decided not to go on any further. "We don't need this today".

Oh how right he is.

and just like my impending diagnosis, i wait with strained and anxious baited breath to hear what has to be said....



RANT


I just came back from the Royal hospital and it was a nightmare.

First, one of the emergency medical team guys was an arrogant asshole (he was making snide comment, saying that "if you were in that much pain, you would not be smiling..." 

i was just trying to be pleasant cause he was being such a douche...


and then went on to argue with me saying that "fibromyalgia" was not a "real disease" (i have it, and it's hell..), and then doubled over, i see a doctor who does a vague exam, pokes my stomach, as i yelp in pain and then says, "well, everything looks okay, why don't you take a few Tylenol and come back if you vomit or have a fever"  and was shipped out.

No blood tests, no nothing.


The last time I was flippantly discharged like this was 5 years ago after having complications with my gallbladder. The next day, i passed out in the shower, was rushed back to the hospital and was almost in severe kidney failure. Was actually being fast tracked for a transplant. Very serious...

my mom had cancer in her lungs, stomach, lymph nodes. Guess what doc? She didn't have a fever or was vomiting...


but I go back because other people have had good experiences there and all of my specialist are at the Royal V. All my files, blood tests, etc. Easy access especially if you are me with all the things i have going on...


So after this "f*&k you", from Dr. Bitchy, i hobbled over to see my stomach specialist who luckily was in the building. He was in the middle of a marathon colononcopy/gastroscopy session, but took the time to see me anyway. He was flabbergasted that i was not given so much as a blood test. He ordered some and is also setting me up for a CT scan next week. "If i do it through the emerg, you can get it next week. Otherwise you will be waiting months, and in your condition, I don't think that's a good idea..."

But he only does stomachs and i have another lady problem. My gyno said nothing short of "you are wasting my time", did the quickest exam, (I blinked and almost missed it) and brushed me off, despite me almost begging for her to give me any kind of blood test. After some arm twisting, she sent me for an ultrasound.

It's only today that I found out from a friend that she recently misdiagnosed one of her patients - and completely missed the ovarian cancer that was spreading like wildfire.

My GP is only available once a week (and my luck, is now on vacation) and every other walk in clinic i have gone to (don't go to Mount medical. It's a Nightmare!!) is staffed with doctors who are jaded and flippant about their jobs. One actually complained that he was not getting paid enough and did not have a clue why he was still in the medical profession.


Don't get me started on the JGeneral...


I kid you not - when my mom was in the emergency there, I saw a doctor who was yelling, I mean YELLING at the top of his lungs to all the nurses at the station. Serious prima donna temper tantrum. No wonder these poor nurses are burning out!

So is anybody else out there worried about the state of our current medical system?

Is the only way to go private?

http://www.ratemds.com/ has some interesting comments on some of our doctors. I suggest you check it out.

And as you would guess, the private doctors are the ones who actually care about their jobs. Money talks, and apparently in this case, heals too.

But if you don't have the cash...???




I'm sorry if I'm ranting, but I'm sure I'm not the only one with horror stories.

to be clear - I'm NOT LOOKING FOR ANSWERS, just support i guess...

2 comments:

michael manning said...

i don't really have anything to say. except to offer my positive energy and belief that anything is possible. i'm listening to vic chesnutt, nathan, and i'm feeling the struggle that it all is, and i've been in it deep myself. 'at times i might could be accused of being painfully nostalgic, but as of late i'm looking forward to the future though i've never been much of a planner', from panic pure.

hellophotokitty said...

Michael,
thank you so much for your support. It means so much to me in a time like this.

I just got back from the hospital and am kind of reeling from some upsetting news that I just received (nothing about death, just betrayal) and will be posting more soon and visiting your blog as well :-)

Namaste.