full moon eclipse fever - hold onto your hats, and sanity...

Full moon - and a lunar eclipse.

Double whammy.

Yikes...

I don't know about you dear reader, but i am highly sensitive to the moon's gravitational pull. Not to mention that i'm rounding PMS chaosville. This could spell trouble in the mental wellness department.

Right now as the world continues its roller-coaster ride of change, you may be feeling dizzy or unsettled by the uncertainty that naturally accompanies times of great shifting.

I'm trying to stay grounded. As much as i can, aside from sticking my head beneath the floorboards of my house. And its not easy with all that is going on around me - writing gigs on the horizon, films, acting opportunities, improv shows. Very exciting stuff and it's easy to get carried away with the potential of the potential fabulousness factor, but i really think that all these "trials" are happening to test my patience, willpower and sanity.

It seems that change is in the air - I'm not the only one sensing "the shift": a fundamental alteration of energy and attitude. Once again, some people are more sensitive than others to this "shift" and some people might consider change in general as a natural side effect of our ongoing personal evolution.  But there are some people who will resist this movement tooth and nail. Screaming all the way. 

Even though as a divine changemaker you are naturally wired to want change, you may reject it as it arrives on your doorstep. Your rejection may be conscious, like when you see a shift coming and then feel unprepared to handle it, so delay taking action. Other times, you may unconsciously reject change, your fear of the unknown so buried within that you simply aren’t aware of it.

This dynamic of simultaneously wanting and rejecting something is not new. It’s part of your conditioning to sabotage yourself with this dualistic approach. What’s different now is that your conditioning has become such a big handicap that you are unable to successfully navigate these rocky times. This means that you have unneeded stresses, delays, and missed opportunities.

Why This Dilemma Matters More Now

You were handicapped in earlier times, too, but your dilemma is more problematical now – it simply matters more as you strive for balance and seek to express your soul’s purpose. Deep within you, there’s likely a feeling of increased urgency now, in part because you have more awareness of being stuck. In fact, a trapped feeling on some days could be so overwhelming that you feel frozen to act on what you know.

The planetary cycles of these times accentuate the pace of revolutionary shifting – for the world and for you personally. Unfinished business not yet looked at will be coming into view. Unworkable ways of being and outmoded systems will continually come up for review. The unfinished and the unworkable will not disappear until addressed.

Feeling stuck is toxic.

it's a slow existential cancer that proliferates deep into the tissue of our being. And like a cancer, it is a challenge to overcome, if one chooses to overcome. Or one can choose to succumb to the disease. 

Not everybody is prepared for the journey - actually, we never really are.  Thinking about any given worst-case scenario used to be an evolutionary caveat that was necessary to our survival. But we have access to technology, to knowledge, to science. We no longer rely on the will of the Gods to cast our fate. We learned how to make our own.

But somewhere in the learning, we became lazy, and complacent. 

Content and passive. 

You know this is happening and you understand that you are alive now to help facilitate the changes. You cannot forget what you know. Your dilemma is your conditioned resistance to change and your impatience with yourself as you make your own needed changes.

Over the next several weeks, you will benefit from putting extra energy into staying centered and nonreactive. You will want to take a closer look at how you live your life. This includes an honest assessment of the health of your key relationships. Since planetary cycles will catalyze unaddressed issues, a proactive approach will help you to smooth the ride.

One of my biggest issues is that I am totally "reactive". Being an intuitive, it's hard for me not to "feel first" and ask questions later. But alas, this is my lesson. 

Patience. 

I can't force a bloom, i can't hurry a death. 

It will all happen in it's own time. 

Which usually, is not my time. 

It's the universe's time.

Lunar Eclipse – Planetary Catalyst of Change

Planetary catalysts of change include the October 18 lunar eclipse. You may have intense feelings around the time of such an eclipse, wanting to do something brand new or perhaps wanting to undo something you started earlier. Go gently with yourself and others, as both feelings and situations may be magnified.

There is a full moon the day of the eclipse, too, so this may amplify things even more. Step back long enough for your spiritually grounded wisdom to reveal most appropriate actions.

Adding to the current intensity is the mercury retrograde of October 21 to November 10. This one may be more erratic than the previous two this year, in part because of the accelerated pace of global revolution. The more sensitive you are, the more you may feel the erratic energy of this retrograde. 

As with all retrogrades, be mindful of communications and life’s details so that you can make adjustments in present time if things don’t go as planned.

To be more proactive in this cycle, do a self-reflection inventory of your life. Pick three areas of concern or stress. Examples could be (1) your work or workplace, (2) your home life, and (3) a key relationship.

Wisdom from our ancestors, wisdom borne of personal experience, wisdom from something larger than we can comprehend - it's all available for us to access. If we stay still long enough, and we listen without bias and preconceptions, we will hear. And know, on a deeper level than words. 

And in that level, we must believe and trust.

Invite your inner wisdom to show you what’s out of balance, your role in the imbalance, and what needs to change. Be honest with yourself. This inventory is for you and your spiritual growth. Your empowerment and freedom come as you face situations honestly and directly, are open to solutions, and then fearlessly take needed actions.

Decide now that you will claim your power in each problematic situation of your life. Don’t wait for someone else to act, or for the dilemma to disappear on its own. Remember that inaction -   when you know you need to act – is still a choice.

I used to be filled with fear of  the future, my past, but now I'm trying to embrace the unknown. It's not an easy task, because i am a creature of habit and comfort, but in the habit and comfort, something inside of me was slowly dying. 

I believe that i was given a gift - through my writing, my photographic and cinematic visions, through my ability to connect with people, to share my special kind of love and connection with the world.

But this means a sacrifice,  and sometimes the sacrifice for a greater good is greater than the self. 

For those who can, and all those who won't or can't - I'm making a choice in blind faith and courage.  And hopefully, you will feel my love when the change does come...